Wednesday, December 31, 2014
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
I love being comfortable.
Unfortunately, I have discovered that I very rarely experience this comfort.
Simple everyday moments of playing with a baby or when I am in the depths of concentration are moments of freedom.
Freedom from holding onto what I know, what I want and resisting what I don't want.
They are moments free of fear.
In the moment, with absolute focus, it is just the experience of freedom.
And yet, there are no moment where this does not exist.
Enjoy those moments this season.
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
Now as I wrestle with the reality of marketing and budgeting, staffing and scheduling, I am less excited about my decision. My struggle with fear has me contemplating getting out. Those thoughts lead me to examining my intention again. I realize I have an even deeper intention. I made this step in order to also protect my position, my identity as a yoga teacher. After years of self study, I know teaching is my calling. I also know that fear of not being able to ensure my identity as teacher with a different studio owner was also a motivating factor in the purchase.
The Yoga Sutras state that non attachment and practice are the keys to freedom from suffering. As long as I hold onto the need to ensure the identity I have created for myself, I will suffer. Certainly in the many hard routes I have accomplished as a climber this was true. Only when I gave up the desperation for success on the route could I actually successfully climb it. So, it is I have come to notice when I give up worrying about the financial success of the studio, and focus on the content, the teachers and the community, my experience of my day is so much freer.
How could you live without plans?
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
Two men were arguing in the marketplace. Each defending his position with great enthusiasm. A crowd had gathered and were watching the dispute unfold.
A sage happened by and was stopped by one of the onlookers. "Oh sage," he said, "you can solve this. Declare is X right?"
The sage replied, "Yes, x is right."
"So you mean Y is not right."
"No, Y is right."
"But sage, that cannot be true. Both cannot be right."
The sage replied, "we are all right from our own view."
And we are. But we are also limited by our ego, our sense of I-am-ness. This creates the idea that there is a right and a wrong. My way is right and the other is wrong. The sense that there is winning and losing.
How do we undo this sense that someone has treated us badly? According to Byron Katie, we recognize the truth that we treated ourselves badly when we trusted that individual. We recognize that the person must really feel separation, their own great sense of "I-am-ness," to have behaved as they did.
Then we hold both ourself and the other with compassion.